What Have You Got To Lose?

I've been asking myself that question a lot lately.

For most of my life I've been a very cautious person. I've kept my mouth shut so I refrain from saying the wrong thing... I've avoided opportunities because I was scared and nervous that if I failed, it could jeopardize my career... Well, I'm done with all of that nonsense. ;)

I'm ready to approach life in such a way that if I lost everything, at least I would know I truly LIVED. I didn't hold back. I couldn't regret NOT trying something. I now have a very "just go for it" kind of attitude. It suits me well. I'm enjoying this freedom!

It also helps me avoid building up so much anxious and nervous energy over a long period of time. EVERY time I let my emotions build up without releasing them and confronting a problem, I end up BLOWING up at someone or something. Whew! That's a lot of "ups" that have been bringing me down. I'm ready to look UP and be lifted UP by a promising future.

Hello, World. Its me, Lindsey. Been awhile since I took you on. Get ready.

25 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me

1. If I was forced to eat just one thing for the rest of my life it would be avocado.

2. My recent favorite animal is a duck.

3. My celeb crush is Zac Efron.

4. I dislike playing the guitar.

5. I wish I didn't dislike playing the guitar.

6. I really need a teleportation device.

7. My dream car is the 1989 batmobile.

8. I know what it feels like to realize you have found "the one".

9. I was obsessed with Shirley Temple as a child.

10. I took ballet, tap and jazz from age 3-15 even though I realized by the age of 6 that I really just liked the shoes.

11. You know I'm reeeeeally happy and in a good place in most aspects of my life when I either look super thin and fit or when I'm a few pounds too heavy. The in between is when you should worry. Haha! Just kiddin. Kinda.

12. My first "dream" was to be a broadway star and live in New York City.

13. My longest relationship was almost 7 years.

14. I have now lived in Nashville, TN for almost 7 years.

15. I now feel old after writing #13 and #14.

16. I finished high school a semester early to be able to perform productions at The Dutch Apple Dinner Theatre and to further learn and get serious about songwriting and develop myself as a recording artist.

17. My first car was a 1996 Chevy Cavalier Z24. I cried when I traded it in for a new car. I still miss it.

18. My favorite feature is my booty.

19. My least favorite are my arms.

20. I learned what good music sounds like from my Dad.

21. I learned what unconditional love feels like from my Mom.

22. My favorite person in the whole wide world is Andrew Charles Hager.

23. My 2 main goals for 2012 are to read the bible all the way through and to present myself in such a way that when others are around me, they see that Christ is my life.

24. There are days I forget and don't think about #23.

25. No matter what life throws at me, I have always always ALWAYS been given enough and I know that I know that I KNOW I am never forgotten.

Sweet Home Pennsylvania

Gosh, I miss home. Thank God I can always go back. I miss the simplicity of life in Lancaster, PA. I miss my family. I miss MOST things about PA (except Amish horse poop on the side of the road). Needless to say, I had an AMAZING visit this past week!

Visiting my cousins Brady and Brandon in Bel Air, MD first 

AND... My lovely Aunt Cindy!

Aunt C, me and David in Bel Air, MD

Its a bird! ... Its a plane! ... Oh, wait... Its just David climbing trees.

Night out with our friends Holly and Derrick. What a great couple =)

Holly and I have been friends since we were 13!

Spring House Beer at Taproom in downtown Lancaster at The Hager Arcade Mall

David. The cow whisperer. (at Pine View Dairy in Conestoga)

You. Can. NOT. Beat. Capt Gus. 

My cousin Katie's first time at Capt Gus and she's lived there ALL HER LIFE!!! I was shocked. 

For the Record (no pun intended)

As a little girl, I went over the details of tomorrow over and over and over in my head.

--- Wow. What will it be like when I actually release a REAL album?!

Unfortunately, its not playing out exactly the way I had hoped it would. Life has a funny way of changing course and it can be difficult when you have no clue why. I know, eventually, the Lord will show me just why He decided for His plan for me to take a turn, but it doesn't make for a smooth ride right now.

I debated writing this blog. I thought tomorrow could just come and pass, but I've received so many messages asking questions about my record release and/or messages expressing intense excitement for me and praying for many blessings. I am so thankful for the incredible amount of support I've had over the years. You guys have lived through this journey with me and I think you deserve to know as much as I can possibly say right now.

I'm sure you can guess... My record is not being released tomorrow. I wish I could fill you in with more information but at this time, I can't. No future date has been set.

I'm sorry for the bad news. I greatly appreciate your understanding in advance... Please pause asking any further questions for the time being. I truly do not have the answers and am trying to figure things out myself. With that said, I will admit that most decisions as of late have been made by me. I need to make the changes I feel I'm led to make in order to live the life I was intended to.

For now, these are helping:

=)